February light

Crocuses poking up through the frozen earth

February is still here, hanging on as it does, but the light has changed.

February comes from a word meaning “the purging”, and was long the last month for the Romans, occasionally followed by Mercedonius, a month (of sorts) tucked into the calendar to get the calendar back in sync with the seasons.

While we mark our time in chunks set by people who lived a long time ago, people who knew nothing of this side of the Atlantic Ocean, the ancient souls in our ancient brains know the light has changed.

So does the life around us.

The geese are back, the crocus spear through the frozen earth, and the squash from last summer are getting soft.

Last summer’s fruit, this spring’s seeds.

I keep planting, I keep brewing, I keep playing my guitar badly, and I keep getting older. Something has to give.

And it will, but that’s all right. My molecules are vibrating as I breathe, and they will keep vibrating when I die, in one form or another.

(That’s not a metaphor, it’s how the universe works.)

My uke, not my guitar–I’m even worse on the uke.

I just came back from visiting my almost 3 month old grand-daughter. She laughs because that’s what humans do. And eventually I need to get out of her way. And I will.

In the meantime I will continue to sow, to harvest, to cull, to peel, to cut, to cook, to eat.

Winter radishes

That’s my hand a few weeks ago, well into winter. My hand is holding a few radishes I planted in the fall and, well, forgot about.

I poked a few seeds into the ground on a warmish September afternoon when the shadows were longer than they were a week before. And I forgot about them.

They grew anyway.

They were not the best radishes I’ve eaten , but they’re the best I’ve pulled out of the ground in winter.

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Less than a mile away, a yearling horseshoe crab rests under the mud, unaware of the dim light above.

Just a reminder to myself.

Another Christmas story

Less than a mile away, in the dim light cast by the plant lights in our classroom, a pill bug wanders around the compost. It moistens it gills, bumbles into a fellow pill bug, exchanges greetings with a brief twitching of touching antennae, then ambles over to nibble on a piece of potato.

It knows of existence, and the existence of others like it.

A North Cape May pill bug, wandering around, doing pill bug things….

Christmas means nothing, of course, to a critter no bigger than a wheat berry.

But living does.

The light is returning.

Amen.

There is joy and wisdom in silence and darkness. Merry Christmas!